haha... i emptied 2 of my tissue box on monday...
nv cried so badly before... but i felt released and freed
i was talking to sean on msn...
then it's like suddenly i decided to open up to him
he told me that this walk with Jesus is not as hard as i think
it is just to overcome all those distractions and follow Him that is hard
which is why we 'labour to seek His rest"
he reminded me... that i am no longer living this life for myself...
Jesus bought this life of mine with His blood
that i will live for Him
and i belong to Him
sometimes darkness just encompass us...
and we fail to see the Light in us
but He is still in us
we just have to be still...
and know that even in the toughest times, we are not alone

these few days were quite tough for me...
i felt backstabbed and disliked...
but then today as i was talking to a friend that i knew long time ago...
i started reflecting on the past...
i found that... there are so many blessings in my life...
and i can barely rmb the bad times in my life...
then i rmb the 'footprints' poem...
through all the tough and difficult times...
He is carrying me through...
and He is my feet when i cant move on...
i am not walking alone...
never going to be...
for He will never ever leave me...

God Loves You - Jaci Velasquez

In the quiet, love is reaching.
It's yours to hold,
Be still and know that
Even when you're lost and lonely,
And hope is gone, you're not alone.

Far beyond the understanding,
There's a hand that leads,
If you believe.

Through the darkness, see the light.
Remember God loves you.

The road ahead is long and winding.
With eyes of faith, you'll find the way, yeah.
And when the journey leaves you weary,
You can rest in the comfort of heaven's arms -
Sweet loving arms.

And peace will follow.
Peace be with you always,
As you go.
For now you know that...

Through the darkness, there's a light.
Remember God loves you.

When you open up your heart,
His love will meet you where you are.
He will always be a part of everything you do.
He is here to set you free,
And give you all the strength you need
To carry on, to carry on.

Through the darkness, see the light.
Remember God loves you. (remember, remember)
Remember God loves you.

8/24/2006 09:40:00 PM; MUSIClover, KNOWitY

well this is the last thing you ask me to do... so i think i'd do it...
and again... i'm sorry...

Instructions:
1) Do the following without complaining.
2) Choose 5 people to do this after you've completed yours.
3) Leave a tag on the person's tagboard saying he/she has been tagged.
4) Start the post with "i've been tagged by..." and do the following.

-FAVOURITES
colour: blue
food: loads... but how bout some claypot frog legs
song: Jesus is my song
sports: basketball, bowling, tennis
day: i guess that's got to be everyday... especially when i feel Jesus with me all day long ^^
season: winter! since singapore doesn't ever has that...
ice-cream: chocolate chip or vanilla

-CURRENT
mood: erm... a little mixed up lol... i feel released and happy after last night... yet i feel shitty due to something else
taste: cup noodles?
clothes: Pelandok 04 Scout PE shirt... with my torn-up OP shorts
desktop: my computer? radio and some books CDs and worksheets
annoyance: the humidity level in my room?

-FIRSTS
best friend: alan? probably because i didn't know sean much then... or maybe siewleng... forgot
crush: erm!!! i don't remember! those days are back in when i was in K1 or K2 lol... after that i went on a 10 year abstinence in a boys' school =P
movie: i only know i watched it on video tape... either lion king or 10 brothers or some jet li show
lie: erm... it should be "i feel like vomitting, can i not go to school today?"
music: errr? twinkle twinkle little star~

-LASTS
-cigarettes: about... maybe 18 years ago my mum might have smoked lol
drink: HMMM Yeos' Soyabean Drink i think
ride: bus?
movie: erm... click...? if on my comp... intial d or sky high
CD: sonicpraise

-HAVE YOU EVER??!
dated one of your best friend: errr... i guess i shouldn't talk about it
been arrested: erm interrogated by police, yes... arrested? i saw someone got arrested before =P
been on tv: erm yeah... they broadcasted me worldwide over the internet during my easter surprise last year =/
kiss a stranger: omg... i've only been kissed by aunties when i was young =P

-4 THINGS U DID TODAY
1. went to school?
2. rejected my class' invitation to play dota
3. took a bus home together with 3 of my classmates who dao-ed me... com plete ly =)
4. played hexic

-4 SOUNDS YOU CAN HEAR RITE NOW
1. my clock ticking
2. my fan
3. keyboard?
4. the ringing silence

-5 PPL THAT I'VE CHOSEN
1. sean
2. clair
3. torrance
4. qian jun
5. jasmine (i wanted to put ariel but i figure she would kill me lol)

8/22/2006 11:55:00 PM; MUSIClover, KNOWitY

dun ask me... im juz bored and i took it off steff's blog

1. Put numbers in the boxes instead of x's (example: 1, 2, 3, 4, ...)
2. Repost as "I have lived through ___ of these 158 things."

I HAVE LIVED THROUGH 104 OF THESE 158 THINGS
[1] I have read a lot of books. (marv: this is quite relative isnt it?)
[ ] I have been on some sort of varsity team.
[2] I have run more than 2 miles without stopping. (marv: think so?)
[3] I have been to Canada.
[ ] I have been to Europe.
[4] I have watched cartoons for hours. (marv:i have childhood wan k?)
[5] I have tripped UP the stairs. (marv: it was painful)
[6] I have fallen down an entire flight of stairs. (marv: it was worse)
[7] I have been snowboarding/skiing. (marv: wheee i wanna go whistler!)
[8] I have played ping pong.
[9] I swam in the ocean.
[ ] I have been on a whale watch.
[10] I have seen fireworks. (marv: every single year =P)
[11] I have seen a shooting star.
[12] I have seen a meteor shower. (marv: actually i saw a shooting star followed by the meteor shower)
[ ] I have almost drowned.
[13] I have been so embarrassed I wanted to disappear.
[14] I have listened to one CD over and over and over again.
[ ] I have had stitches.
[15] I have had frostbite.
[ ] I have licked a frozen pole and got stuck there. (marv: whos tt dumb?)
[16] I have stayed up 'til 2 doing homework/projects. (marv: dun remind me)
[ ] I currently have a job.
[17] I have been ice skating.
[18] I have been roller blading.
[ ] I have fallen flat on my face.
[19] I have tripped over my own two feet.
[20] I have been in a fist fight.
[21] I have watched the Power Rangers. (marv: go go power rangers! i have their theme song in my zen =P)
[22] I attend Church regularly.
[23] I have played truth or dare.
[24] I have already had my 16th birthday.
[25] I have already had my 17th birthday.
[26] I've called someone stupid.
[27] I've been in a verbal argument.
[28] I've cried in school.
[ ] I've played basketball on a team.
[ ] I've played baseball on a team.
[ ] I've played football on a team.
[29] I've played soccer on a team.
[30] I've done cheerleading on a team.
[ ] I've played softball on a team.
[ ] I've played volleyball on a team.
[ ] I've played tennis on a team.
[ ] I've been on a track or cross country team.
[31] I've been swimming more than 20 times in my life.
[ ] I've bungee jumped.
[32] I've climbed a rock wall.
[33] I've lost more than $20.
[34] I've called myself an idiot.
[35] I've called someone else an idiot.
[36] I've cried myself to sleep.
[37] I've had (or have) pets.
[38] I've owned a spice girls CD.
[39] I've owned a Britney Spears CD.
[40] I've owned an N*Sync CD.
[41] I've owned a backstreet boys CD.
[ ] I've mooned someone. (marv: wads mooned?)
[42] I have sworn at someone of authority before.
[ ] I've been in the newspaper.
[43] I've been on TV.
[ ] I've been to Hawaii.
[44] I've eaten sushi. (marv: sakae sushi ftw!)
[45] I've been on the other side of a waterfall. (marv: yeap the biggest one ever... niagara falls)
[46] I've watched all of the Lord of the Rings movies.
[47] I've watched all the Harry Potter movies.
[ ] I've watched all of the Rocky movies.
[ ] I've watched the 3 stooges.
[ ] I've watched "Newlyweds" Nick & Jessica.
[48] I've watched Looney Tunes.
[ ] I've been stuffed into a locker/I have stuffed others into lockers.
[49] I've been called a geek. (marv: dom calls me imba everyday)
[50] I've studied hard for a test and got a bad grade.
[51] I've not studied at all for a test and aced it.
[ ] I've hugged my mom within the past 24 hrs.
[ ] I've hugged my dad within the past 24 hours.
[52] I've met a celebrity/music artist.
[53] I've written poetry.
[ ] I've been arrested.
[54] I've been attracted to someone much older than me.
[55] I've been tickled till I've cried.
[56] I've tickled someone else until they cried.
[ ] I've had/have siblings.
[57] I've been to a rock concert.
[58] I've listened to classical music and enjoyed it.
[59] I've been in a play.
[ ] I've been picked last in gym class.
[ ] I've been picked first in gym class.
[ ] I've been picked in that middle-range in gym class.
[60] I've cried in front of my friends.
[61] I've read a book longer than 1,000 pages.
[ ] I've played Halo 2.
[62] I've freaked out over a sports game.
[ ] I've been to Alaska.
[63] I've been to China.
[ ] I've been to Spain.
[ ] I've been to Japan.
[64] I've had a fight with someone on msn.
[65] I've had a fight with someone face-to-face.
[66] I've had serious conversations on any IM.
[67] I've forgiven someone who has done something wrong to me.
[68] I've been forgiven.
[ ] I've screamed at a scary movie.
[ ] I've cried at a chick flick.
[69] I've watched a lot of action movies.
[70] I've screamed at the top of my lungs.
[ ] I've been to a rap concert.
[72] I've been to a hip hop concert.
[73] I've lived in more than 2 houses.
[74] I've driven on the highway/been on the highway.
[75] I've driven more than 40 miles in a day/been in a car that went more than 40 miles in a day.
[ ] I've been in a car accident.
[ ] I've done drugs.
[76] I've been homesick.
[77] I've thrown up.
[78] I've puked on someone.
[ ] I've been horseback riding.
[79] I've filled out more than 10 myspace/LJ surveys. (marv: smack PW!)
[80] I've spoken my mind in public.
[81] I've proved someone wrong.
[82] I've been proven wrong by someone.
[ ] I've broken a leg. (ankle counteD? haha)
[ ] I've broken an arm/fingers.
[83] I've fallen off a swing.
[84] I've swung on a swing for more than 30 minutes straight.
[85] I've watched Winnie the Pooh movies.
[ ] I've forgotten my backpack when I've gone to school.
[ ] I've lost my backpack.
[86] I've come close to dying.
[ ] I've seen someone die.
[87] I've known someone who has died.
[88] I've wanted to be an actor/actress at some point.
[ ] I've done modeling.
[89] I've forgotten to brush my teeth some mornings.
[90] I've taken something/someone for granted.
[91] I've realized how good my life is.
[92] I've counted my blessings.
[93] I've made fun of a classmate.
[94] I've been asked out by someone and I said no.
[95] I've slapped someone in the face.
[96] I've been skateboarding.
[97] I've been back stabbed by someone I thought was a friend.
[98] I've lied to someone in their face.
[99] I've told a little white lie.
[100] I've taken a day off from school just so I don't go insane.
[101] I've fainted.
[ ] I've had an argument with someone about whether cheerleading is a sport or not.
[102] I've pushed someone into a pool.
[103] I've been pushed into a pool.
[104] I've been/am in love

8/19/2006 10:25:00 PM; MUSIClover, KNOWitY

lol ok finally had the urge to post after reading from the start again lol
let me update you about my life lol

School:
well... i have been studying alot lately... mostly because of grace
lol and trying my very best to absorb as much information from my lecturers as possible
well we just had national day... so my lazy bone is acting again...
i don't feel like studying... but i have to... zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

National Day:
lol sean and i had a super fun time at daryl's house
we played dota together in the morning with andy
haha retardedness...
oh yeah they started mixing peace absolute vodka with juices
watermelon juice and celery juice -.-"
then we played taboo while they drank the vodka...
and as you should know, i don't drink
i did became a little brave and tried a sip of super diluted vodka and wine
but i still didn't like it
haha taboo was fun...
but we played till we were so tired and we slept like logs

CG:
we were supposed to have an outing today...
but the attendance was... horrible so we postponed it
i think it is partly my fault that i procrastinated the planning and stuff
but oh man... i don't feel sad or anything because andy suddenly popped up at sean's house and we played dota (again)

Grace:
hmmm wad to say?
lol all's well ^^
our 'honeymoon period' is ending soon i guess =P
3 more days till 1st monthsary =)

too tired to post =P till next time!

8/10/2006 11:06:00 PM; MUSIClover, KNOWitY